Hello Anxiety:

I pray all is well on your end because as of lately you've been driving me APE SHIT. Today, my emotions ran heavy as I woke up in a manic state preparing to conquer the world. As the day took a turn I could feel my energy shift and you shifting right along with it. … Continue reading Hello Anxiety:

Dear Bipolar 2,

Hello my frenemy. It has been years since I have written about you and even longer since my diagnosis. Lets be clear: I will not let you win! I use to be in the dark about what was going on with me asking, 'why do I get so sad that I don't wanna move and … Continue reading Dear Bipolar 2,

My Drinking…My Problem

By: Christiawn Emmanuel | February 11, 2018 “Self-pity is spiritual suicide. It is an indefensible self-mutilation of the soul.” –Anthon St. Maarten Raise your hand if you have ever told yourself or had someone say to you that your drinking had gotten out of control.  Well gentle-people, if I could have both hands sky high … Continue reading My Drinking…My Problem

Ashe.Selah

Today I have decided to create a living digital blog posting. Often times we create our blog posts, publish them with an occasional response to a comment from a reader and never return. Well this post shall be different in that I will begin with the most powerful affirmation I know and continue to add … Continue reading Ashe.Selah

No More

I'm shaking or is it that I'm shaken. Emotions overflowing. Mind is racing with thoughts of this, that him, her, them. I want to believe that 2014 isn't on repeat That this feeling of pain No not PAIN bcuz those poems have been written, signed, and sealed Sent certified mail to the those who thought … Continue reading No More

Carry On! By: Robert W. Service

It's easy to fight when everything's right, And you're mad with the thrill and the glory; It's easy to cheer when victory's near, And wallow in fields that are gory. It's a different song when everything's wrong. When you're feeling infernally mortal; When it's ten against one, and hope there is none, Buck up, little … Continue reading Carry On! By: Robert W. Service

Taking Care of Self II

 On August 18, 2014, I posted, “I chose to begin taking Pre-Exposure Prophylaxis or PrEP as another way to take back control of my life.  As a man of color who is also same-gender-loving the odds are against me in quite a few ways.  Instead of allowing the world to get me, I’m taking a stand with … Continue reading Taking Care of Self II

#BlackLivesMatter: on malicious hate

I value this piece because instead of the route expected the choice to put things into a perspective that I believe will aid in understanding our frustrations…and where they come from will allow for a more conducive conversation holistically.

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By using social spaces to assert that Black Lives Matter, I have noticed a certain pattern in responses. But let’s be clear, #BLM merely means that we need to pay attention to Black lives because our lives have never been valued in the U.S. That is, outside of seeing us as property, free labor, cheap labor, experiments, and vehicles for capitalism via slavery, discriminatory housing policies, HeLa cells/the Tuskegee Syphilis study and the prison industrial complex.

Let’s not forget that we, as a people, have never been silent about our mistreatment. But as a result of recent events, we now vehemently assert that our lives matter. We do not claim that they matter more than anyone else’s, but merely that they matter. But by speaking out about our precious Black lives, people get…offended, upset, and hostile. People get downright nasty. We assert our lives and many fellow North Americans assert their hate. And I…

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From Chilly to Joyous

Today I had a conversation with a dear friend about how I stopped being cold on the inside as well as on the outside to others but most of all to myself.  I didn't know what I had done until I had to put it into words to share my experience. What you will read … Continue reading From Chilly to Joyous

A prayer for our #MenOfColor

There is #pain sweeping through my men of color and those who love US. Lord I ask that you wrap your arms around each and every one of US.  Hold US #LordGod in such a way that WE are able to find the comfort tgat WE are seeking within you heavenly father. My God send … Continue reading A prayer for our #MenOfColor

Sending up another prayer.

There is #pain sweeping through my men of color and those who love US. Lord I ask that you wrap your arms around each and every one of US.  Hold US #LordGod in such a way that WE are able to find the comfort tgat WE are seeking within you heavenly father. My God send … Continue reading Sending up another prayer.