I chose the word ramble because it perfectly describes my thoughts, my emotions, and how I express the both of them. Even more so, my rambles make up the better and the worse parts of who I am and who I shall become; I am proud to be The_Ramblr.
I have chosen now to put my ramblez out there for the world to see, hear, smell, taste, or touch -whichever tickles you most- because I have come to a place in my own life that I need help. I no longer desire to #CONTROL my emotions. My desire is now to effectively manage them. In the past, my major means of #EXPRESSION was to be a creative writer. I would take my life experiences and put them on paper; not leaving my pain, anger, grief, anxiety and most of all depression the ability to fester or bottle up. As a result of being overwhelmed by emotions and the life of a broken teenager…I through my pen and paper away. I arrived at a place in my life where darkness & alcohol consumed me. It would be almost a decade before a pen and I met on the battlefield again.
On the morning of February 2nd, 2014 -the day before my 25 birthday, I no longer wanted to be in that dark and lonely place consumed by those negative emotions and experiences. In that moment I gave it all to the God of my understanding and began to walk by #FAITH.
It was not until July 20, 2014 that I made the decision and conscious choice to write again. I realized that there is not a want but a need for #SOMEONE(S) to be voices for the communities they are apart of instead of just sitting back and saying nothing.
*DISCLAIMER: This blog will not be a God rant because that is simply not how I am set-up. However you can expect there to be things that I post or re-blog about the goodness of the God of my understanding.